Tuesday, May 06, 2003

Hi ya'll! Since we're still kinda on the subject of dreams (I decided to take a 'night off' of the computer last night), I thought I'd throw in a couple. I commented below on Melissa's dreams that mine tend to be abstract and not very memorable most of the time because of that. But there are some that I remember (some are way to embarrassing to share here-LOL!)- one was that I thought I had just gone to sleep (I may have even been awake?), and I felt this presence leaning over me, like an air or spirit- it was like I could feel their breath. I was soooo scared- I jumped up, turned on all my lights and was just trying to take it in. My heart was just pounding. It was around 2 AM & my parents were still out, and my sis was asleep, so I was more or less alone. I don't know if it was an evil spirit or a good one- all I knew is that I turned on LOTSA lighte and kept checking around my room. When I went through a divorce (about 12 years ago), I was really afraid of my ex- let's say that he never laid a hand on me, but I wouldn't put it past him. He definitely stalked me after I moved out. For about a year & then some after, I would have nightmares that he would come after me with a knife or gun- sometimes I would talk him out of it, other times I would hear the gun go off and I'd wake up. My opinion is that I was really working through some stuff that was in my subconscious. I was constantly looking over my shoulder for at least 3 years after that time- especially after I had one of those dreams. Something weird in my dreams is that I will 'remember' something from a past dream while I'm dreaming- as if it really happened. I also have deja vu dreams & dreams within dreams. My favorites when I was a kid was that I would dream that I got something as a present, but when I woke up, it was gone. After a couple of these, I would think (in my dream, mind you) that if I hold onto it tight enough, I can bring it back with me. LOL! If only it were so.... :D

Gotta get to work, but I'll check in from time to time. It was actually kinda nice not being on the laptop last night, but I miss chatting with "my gals"! BTW....did anyone watch Fear Factor last night? It was good, but gross!! LOL!
Talk to you later!

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